n. pl. hi·a·tus·es or hiatus
1. a gap or interruption in space, time, or continuity; a break.
so,
that's where i've been...somewhere between the mental & literal state. i
never meant to be gone so long. it was no vacation, trust me.
i was busy or stifled or lazy or
overwhelmed...sometimes underwhelmed or just keeping the all too private
journal (i can't not write at all.) i didn't think i had it in me, but the
thoughts were there. the anecdotes. the euphemisms. the humor at life. the
sadness & distraught of it all. so, i climbed in my tortoise shell &
hid like a coward. i was afraid that i'd lost my public display of
wordage...the ones that were socially acceptable to speak out.loud. when have i
ever been afraid of that? i got words, folks.
& maybe they aren't always the right words.
i say things that don't make sense. i make cultural references (okay, of the
pop variety) that get question mark faces. & sometimes, i even speak of
things that most would shun me of because they're thought of, just not spoken;
but they're mine...those words. i take ownership.
i've never set out to hurt another person
intentionally. ever. not even a cruel joke at someone else's expense. i am
funny...yes. not cruel. (or, i think i'm funny...it varies on the crowd. or
maybe it's just me) if it's ever heard or read that way...then, whoops!
anyhoo, my life can't revolve around what i
shouldn't have said when i've trained myself to be real. it's hard to be
guarded 24/7 scared that a few may not understand me or know of my utterly
un-malicious intent.
time to move on with the light & breezy once
more. break's over...time to get to work!
